Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Surprising myself

This post has been mulling around in my mind for a few weeks after a situation which knocked me over with a feather.  Before I go any further, the situation has since been resolved but I am left wondering who I am.  Oh I know who I am, but I'm asking the question of myself, who is the person who reacted so emotionally.  I can never, ever remember being so full of despair, so gob smacked by something before.   I am the type of person who is a problem solver, I'm stubborn and never give up and I have never before felt that there was nothing I could do.

Where did that feeling leave me?  Sobbing uncontrollably for an age.  Nobody in my family knew how to help me, what to say to me, what to do.  I didn't know either.  Remembering that night is not pleasant.....realising that I could be so affected by something and have no control over my emotions was very confronting.

In relection, I've realised a number of things -

1.  I still don't know myself 100%.
2.  Some situations need time to be resolved.
3.  There are some things that are beyond my control and that's o.k.
4.  I need to develop more patience and understanding, not only with myself but with others.
5.  Communication is the single most important thing in any situation.
6.  Always try to see the big picture and be prepared to look at something from someone else's perspective.
7.  When your head is telling you to butt out of something but your intuition is telling you to butt in, follow your intuition, it's always right.
8.  Life is about expecting the unexpected.
9.  Remember that life's experiences are opportunities to learn things about other people and yourself.
10.  Emotions are a part of life even if they can sometimes be overwhelming, it's what makes us human.

May life not throw anymore surprises at me just yet, I need to take a big breath.



  1. Who knows what tomorrow may bring. That's what makes life so interesting (or so disturbing). You seem to have the situation under control now.
    Love from Mum

  2. How lovely Anne that your mother has responded to you here. Thank you for writing frankly. I now don't feel quite so alone in my own scary place. Periodically life situations take me out in precisely the same way & yet I too generally approach most things with commonsense & a logic..let's just work this through, of course we can, sort of stuff. I have come to the conclusion that I will always be a bit vulnerable in this area but it really is most perturbing to end up in such a an undone position unwittingly. Hope that you are breathing easy this week...much love Catherine xox

  3. I think if we could all just switch off the 'shoulds' and 'shouldn't's and followed our instincts a little more, life would be a whole lot simpler. Our guts seem to know the way, but they want to be free-er, more expressive and more 'out there' than our heads will allow.

    I'm glad you sorted out this issue, Anne. I also wanted to tell you that your comment on my 'night stalker' post meant a lot to me. x

  4. Hi Anne, sorry that something knocked you so badly for six, I hope you are recovered now. You made me think. Is it a bad thing that we sometimes behave or react to things in ways that we wouldn't have expected? We are all complex - some more than others, but Robotic people are my least favourite type. I don't know if my instinct is always the right way either - its gotten me into scrapes that my head would have avoided! Life's a rollercoaster - up, down, and a few straight runs (but not many of those!). Sending you love. x