This weekend is really a bit off a fizzer as far as sunshine goes. That's not only weather wise but for me too. I really dislike waking up with that heavy feeling in my body and the immediate thought that goes with it, oh no, it's going to be one of those days. Well I have to say that rather than wallow in my I don't want to get out of bed feeling, I now try to think this is not a good start to the day....but it may get better.
When my lovely hubbie asks me if I'm o.k., I can say "Today is not a good day for me, but I'll be o.k." And I will be. Isn't it nice to have reached a place where I can say and think that? This morning being Sunday I have the luxury of not having to be out the door to take Miss G. to school, my family is home and we are all relaxing or pottering around the house doing bits and pieces. I have decided to spend a little extra time in bed this morning, just slowly working my way up into the day, not pressuring myself to get on with the laundry, cleaning up the kitchen, the baking that needs doing or tidying up my never ending mess. Instead I've had a cup of tea, breakfast and morning coffee, all in bed :-) And of course reading the blogs I follow (laptops are wonderful as is wireless internet connection), making a few comments here and there, and dealing with a few very NASTY hot flushes. I'm taking the time to think about creative ideas that are running around in my head, being inspired but other people's creativity and making a list of things I'd like to make.
Last night I made some Christmas baubles for the girls to hang on their bedroom doorknobs. If you follow my other blog, you will already know this, sorry. The enjoyment I get out of having an idea in my head and then actually bringing it to fruition is so rewarding. A huge part of the joy of creating is sharing it with others. I really love the internet and blogging for this very reason, the sharing and caring with heaps of wonderful people.
On a slightly different note, I would like to mention an experience I had late Friday afternoon which brought home to me how fortunate I really am and in comparison to some other people. I was at the local pharmacy to pick up my happy pills (as I call them) and bumped into an acquaintance of some 15 years or so. Some of our children were at primary school together so there is a connection of sorts. We were asking how our respective families were going and I learnt in this particular family, the son who has just turned 20 is suffering a rare and aggressive form of cancer which needs to be treated with an equally aggressive type of chemo for a year. The young man who is sick only has one kidney, so there are many things to be concerned about. The mother suffers extreme anxiety and depression and has been very unwell for two years and is basically housebound. Her illness started before the son was diagnosed with cancer. The father, whom I was talking to, had two years previously been suffering a digestive disorder which now thankfully is under control. The father is the sons carer and a daughter is the mothers carer. So you see, in comparison what do I have to complain about? Very little.
Tomorrow the sunshine will be out and as I'm typing this I can see out my bedroom window the clouds clearing and blue sky is showing.